it was a better visit than i'm used to having with her, because she had lumi to distract her. but of course there are always challenges, and every time we say goodbye i feel guilty that i am not more patient.
she lies (perhaps that's a strong way to say it because there is rarely malice involved, but how else do you describe saying untrue things?) and says and does crazy things that are not socially acceptable. on one hand i can't seem to bring myself to respond positively toward them, because that feels like i am encouraging that kind of behavior and communication. but on the other hand, since she's been like this for as long as i can remember, and she is over 60 years old, so i am resigned to the fact that she's not going to learn anything from my negative responses, or reflect on how her behavior affects her relationships, or change how she acts. so our interactions are a major source of stress to me because i spend huge amounts of energy trying to control my temper, and after a few days of this all i am left with is exhaustion and anger and guilt and i can barely be civil to her.
so is there another way of dealing with this?
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